Well today I went to school, just like every other day. Except the fact that it was my last ever day at Victoria College. It's funny, when I first came here I only every looked at the negative things about the school and now i've finally realised that I'd probably only be happy here. I mean if I go back now to Scotland it would just be awkward. Awkward is kind of the only way to describe it. Things have changed and I know it won't be the same, but I just have to accept that. I thought Harris was the greatest place to be but now that I've seen what it's like at a grammar school I guess I just want to be where I'd get the best education. I know my old school in Dundee was really great as well but there were just too many distractions. I can't believe occasionally teachers just gave up because they couldn't control the classes. I know it sounds terrible but was it really that bad? Looking back now, I can't really remember how much I actually concentrated at school but I'm sure I've changed. I'm so much more serious about school now, I try my best. I spend way to much time just to please my teachers. Just to show them my efforts. It's a lot harder at Victoria but it's a better school, there are better opportunities and I can't even compare the two schools. But the thing is, I seriously don't know where I want to be, I feel sick just thinking about it. Sometimes I think that I'd like Dundee better because I'd put my friends in front of my education but that's just silly. I've made so many great friends here in Belfast and I actually feel like part of my class. This wasn't the case last year but just recently I've realised who my real friends are. You think you're friends would do anything for you, be there whenever you needed to talk but when I think about my old friends in Dundee I'm just not sure if they really were my friends. I'm not sure if they would care as much and help me out whenever I needed them.
The reasons why I like Victoria is because I like the idea of a girls school, when my parents told me that I was going here I nearly died and I certainly did not expect to like it. The thing is here I'd get a great education, there are so many opportunities in art and other subjects I really want to take. My friends are really nice here, i've not had a single fall out at all in this year. It's funny, I have a friend called Hannah and she was really close with this other girl called Sarah. I used to think she was so mean, and she really didn't like me. And then one day she found out that thats what i thought and she was just like 'it's not that I don't like you, i just don't know you' My impression of her didn't change though, until I got moved to her class. Now I think she's really nice and I feel really sad because I didn't get to know her as well as I'd have like. She and Caitlin reminded me a lot of my old friends. The thing about this school is that there's an even balance between fun and work and it's great. The girls are really nice, it's so nice being able to talk about mature things and also being able to be really silly with the same people. My friend here understand me so well, I just wish I had a little more time with them. Yesterday I wasn't planning on coming in to school. And then one of my friends called Alix phoned me, she said that if I didn't come in I'd get a Saturday detention from my teacher and she'd tell my new school that I was unreliable as I hadn't been in much this week! I quickly rushed into school, feeling very upset and confused. But as I arrived at school, there were all these posters saying 'We will miss you Nusrat'. It was the nicest feeling ever. At break i entered my form room and they all gave me a huge surprise, we had cake and stuffed our faces with sweets. I got presents from some of the girls and even my teacher! I though she sincerely disliked me. A girl called Rachel who didn't know very well got me a Cath Kidston bag! She also wrote me a really nice letter, I felt so bad reading it, I cried a lot. She was really nice but for some reason I never though we'd be great friends. It was such a nice day, one I won't forget easily. Most of the teachers are really nice and I just can't think of why I didn't like this school in the first place. I never gave it a chance, I just fixed in my mind that I'd never adjust here. My sister wants to move more than I do but that doesn't mean she isn't upset. Her friends got her so many things, a memories book, a phone and a webcam were just a few. I couldn't believe it when I saw. I wasn't surprised at the things she got her, I was surprised at how much they care. I just can't believe me and my sister made so many great friends here and we had no idea how great they were until today. It's funny if you asked me a year ago where i'd like to be - Dundee or Belfast, my answer would be almost instantaneous. But now I actually have to think of it. I just don't know.